I am a happy teen who is also sad

I am a happy teen who is also sad.
I wonder if I’ll ever have one feeling.
I see horrible things.
I want to help others.
I am a happy teen who is also sad

I pretend that everything’s ok with a smile.
I feel like I’m falling.
I touch the fear inside me.
I worry about my downfalls.
I cry when I think about my past.
I am a happy teen who is also sad.

I understand that I will never stop hurting.
I say, “How does this continue to happen?”
I dream that I will continue to have downfalls
I try to get up but continue to fall
I hope that I can continue to get up and never stop
I am a happy teen who is also sad.

~Esteban